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5:56 AM Saturday, April 18, 2009
This photo gave me old memories.
Whenever i see this photo
i remember all the good times
when everyone is having fun
every harsh trainings that we have faced
every sad moments that we have been through
Sometimes it just feels sad and nostalgic thinking about it
thinking that having so little time left
thinking that you have wasted 3 and a half years in RVWUSHUXST
without making any achievements
without making a difference in everyone.
I feel that
I did not make an impact in RVWUSHUXStT
I did not make a difference
I did not fufill my promises and responsibilities
I am a bad member of RVWUSHUXST
I am a bad logistics head.
Thats why im not inside the photo.
Hehe.
7:03 AM Friday, April 17, 2009
In these 4 years in RV
I like my cca.
Its the motivation that made me stay in RV
made me tolerate the bad moments in RV.
I have thought about this question for a long time
What if RV does not have wushu?
what will happen to the people in RVWUSHUXST?
My answer is
without RVWUSHUXST
i will not learn about teamwork
i will not have the bestest friends that i have for four years
i might still be an arrogant idiot who is self centered and fat and stupid and nerdy and no life and has mushroom hair and has millions of pimples and so non-confident and blah blah blah....
Im proud of my cca
because RVWUSHUXST is my second home
where i learnt a lot of things there
like moral values and real friendship and teamwork and a lot of stuff.
RVWUSHUXST has my best memories in my four years
whenever theres always something happy it will always be linked to RVWUSHUXST.
I like RVWUSHUXST. =D
Because it is something important to me.
It just feels hollow without it.
Dunno why.
In the past i chose NCC as my first choice of cca.
I want to be like my brother
However i went into wushu.
At first i felt disappointed.
However
as the years passed by
I became part of it.
Im proud of it.
If i went to NCC instead of wushu
i might have wasted 4 years of my life.
Seriously.
I love RVWUSHUXST.
I just do.
But i might have taken it for granted.
I did not put in my 120% effort.
I did not handle the admin stuff properly.
I did not cherish the four years in RVWUSHUXST.
I failed in being a logistics head
I failed in becoming a part of RVWUSHUXST.
For the past few years.
This year
I felt acknowledged by my team.
I felt happy with RVWUSHUXST.
But its now too late.
6:58 AM Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Once
God created a boy
he has no name
nor he has a past
he is perfect.
On the day of his 15th birthday
everything turned upside down for him.
His life turned 180 degrees upside down
everything became his nightmare
he became a burden to everybody
so he decided not to live.
He learns that life does not revolve around him
without him
life will continue on.
no one will stop and pray for him
In a team
he does not feel that he is part of the team
he feels that he is not a good leader
he feels that he is only a burden to the team
He believes
that one day the team will accept him again
but this wish never came true.
In a family
he is constantly being nagged non-stop by everyone
for the slightest mistakes
although he didnt do anything wrong
He believes
one day his parents will understand him
but his wish didnt came true
God is disappointed in him.
Everyone is disappointed in him.
No one pitied him.
To them
he is just an ordinary person
no importance
without him
the world will still revolve around
there will still be 12 months.
Such a person like him
should be deserved to be banished off this peaceful world
there are no room for sandbags
His name is ____ ___ ____
6:00 AM Saturday, April 4, 2009
Everybody has to say goodbye
I dunno if I say goodbye
I will have the fate to see you all again
Especially you.