Chronicles of a Lonely Saint

2011-05-06T08:59:00.000-07:00

And try to hope for the best :)

2011-05-04T07:22:00.001-07:00

Hello!
So long nvr update liao haha.
Anyway there are a lot of things to catch up e.g. homework, commitments.
Haha will still be posting once in a blue moon :)

2011-04-15T03:45:00.000-07:00

After-competition thoughts hmmm.
Overall, I think you guys....
Did super well :D
Haha although in other people's view we did not do as well,
In my opinion,
I think you guys are the best among the others.
Although there is still room for improvement,
I think you guys have totally give your best shot!
We can surely improve and show the rest what we are made of
:D

Sorry that we did not really start training until recently.
Although we have the wushu Jiti blog to motivate each other and pass "homework" to practise during your free time,
it appears as an insignificant part and I have not utilized it properly.
I should have thought far enough to forsee this, and yet I didn't
It kind of showed how "good" a leader I am :/
I also have to thank Francis.
For pushing this team up, constantly sending motivational messages in the night, choreographing the taolu and many other things.
Thank you francis :D
And I have to thank many other people for cheering for the team :D
And those that have supported for us :D
Thank you Jiaolian Shishu and Shigong for all the hard work that you all have put in :D
And the wufang jiaolians too :)

Haha well..
This might not be the last time I say this but,
I love you guys :D
Keep on going with your lives eh :)
Keep the wushu spirit going :D
Jiayou :D

Sorry.
Shan't interfere with you all anymore :)

2011-03-25T09:10:00.000-07:00

Today is a beautiful day.
It is also the day when all my hopes are gone.
The day where I realised when optimism is always inferior to reality.
When I lost trust in myself.
When I lost my last and only chance to prove myself.
When I thought I could do it but in fact I can't.
When none of the physical pain is comparable to my emotional pain.
When it will be my final training.
When all my promises with my friends went down the drain.
When I know it wouldn't be okay.
When I earned myself a broken leg.

Didn't know this day will come so soon.
Well, today is a beautiful day.
So is tomorrow.
And the day that comes afterwards...

2011-03-13T08:40:00.001-07:00

Testing :)
Haha but very cui :/
Hope can improve next time LOL

2011-03-12T05:36:00.000-08:00

The art of Z.
LOL just random post haha.

2011-02-25T08:36:00.001-08:00

I remember
When I first entered to RV
I led a stupid life of being a sucker and indulging in my own world
Just like an autistic kid
Having a mundane life.
I even put my first choice as NCC to follow my brother's footsteps
Haha I would realise that Wushu will be a much better choice for me.

I didn't regret that I entered wushu.
I didn't regret knowing my batchmates.
I didn't regret knowing my seniors.
I didn't regret going competition on my first year and get 2nd last.
I didn't regret that I have been heartbroken so many times.
I didn't regret that I have a coach that likes to torture us with PT once.

In fact.

I am proud that I am in RVWUSHU.
I am proud that I have such awesome seniors.
I am proud that I have such awesome batchmates.
I am proud that I have been improving over the course of 5 years.
I am proud that my teammates have constantly cheered me up during my downfall.
I am proud that I have a coach that taught us not only wushu but also moral values and 武德, and shows his love towards us using PT.
I am proud that we have made school performances so successful, especially CNY performance 2011 [credit to tony and gordon]
I am proud that we have such awesome teachers in charge.

And that added so much colours to my life.
To give me the thrust to fly up the sky.

Haha man I enjoy the times when we are all together.
When we go out and perform for other associations.
When we crack jokes and do stupid things together [esp shigong and jiale's jokes].
When we listen to the coaches' lengthy talk about 武德 and 修养, and talk about their life experiences.
Especially yesterday.
When 师公 mentioned about the 流沙 theory
When he talked about how thankful he was to become our 教练.
When he talked about 善事
When he mentioned about cherishing things when we have it now
When he mentioned that we have to adapt to the changes made my our new coach...
And when he talked about gathering at the hall being NOTHING WRONG.

From one angle I have to thank Mr Koh
For stimulating our RVWUSHU bond
Making it so much stronger than previous times.
The drastic changes that he made also let us know that we have the ability to adapt to environmental changes.
Made us realise how sad it is to change a coach.
Made us realise that we should cherish things before they leave us.
He also showed that we can overcome the obstacles that he have given us throughout these two years.

Well Mr Koh aside.

As quoted by 师公: "一个结束就是一个新的开始.＂
Thank you WuXuan for all those colours that you all have painted on my life.
Especially 师公, 教练 and 师叔.
Past the 6 years, I have learnt so much from you all
Thank you very much for all the guidance that you all have taught me.
Without you all, I won't be here blogging about how you all have impacted me, and would still be indulging in my own world becoming a pokemon master.
Without you all, I wouldn't become who I am now.
Thank you :)

I don't want you all to leave.
Seriously.
There is still so much for us to learn.
We are still so young.
However, I guess it's another phase that we are going through.
Another obstacle.
Another goal.
Depends on what people believe in.
Despite these changes,
Let us stand firm
And continue to shine :)
Continue to show the world what RVWUSHU is made of :)
And will always remember you all :)

Once again, thank you WuXuan, 师公, 教练 and 师叔.
Hope that we will meet again :)

2011-02-03T00:41:00.001-08:00

Haha I guess I'm turning into a blob-of-fat after eating so much food :/
Food-ful day :)

2011-01-13T07:55:00.000-08:00

I like you.
Will you go out with me?
Haha that line shall be kept in my heart for the time being. :)

2011-01-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

Can we be friends again? :)

2010-12-19T09:36:00.002-08:00

Everyone has a secret place.
It is a place where you can reside alone, truly be yourself and do whatever you want.

It can be anywhere.
Even places like wushu room :)
It makes me feel calm and nostalgic whenever I go there.
All those memories and feelings just come rushing up.
However, this is our 秘密基地, and not my secret place.

It can also be somewhere during an occasion, where you can be watching TV at night and munching on potato chips at the same time.
My secret place is a......

CLEAN TOILET! [surprised?]

It all started way back when I was a toddler.
When I stopped using the potty, I began using the toilet.
As I was intrigued with confined spaces when I was a kid, I came to like the toilet.

I came to realise that this confined space is what i know to be my secret place.
The place where I can reside alone.
Truly be myself.
Do anything.

When I go to the toilet, I would bring a book to entertain myself.

Maybe something to play with.
But when I use it too long, my mum will come and check :X

Normally, I reflect on my life whenever I'm in the toilet.
And think too much.
Sometimes I imagine that
When I open the toilet door,
I will find myself in another world.
Another place.
Haha those were the times....

The toilet also serves as a barrier to block me from the outside world.
Run away from people.
Procrastinate away from things.
But I know I can't stay forever.
Just for this moment.

Although it's just a temporary shelter for me, this toilet is my secret place. :)
Well, what's yours? :)

2010-12-14T07:24:00.000-08:00

I hope I can help you, although I'm just a normal stranger to you.

2010-11-27T07:43:00.000-08:00

Saw the RVWUSHU investiture video just now.
Really felt like returning back to the good old days.
And enjoy having fun with your batchmates.
And repent for the mistakes that I did.
And do the right things.

"You don't get another chance, life is no nintendo game."

I guess that's just it.
Is this the life that I desired?
Is this the RVWUSHU that I wanted it to be?
I'm really starting to question my own existence.

2010-11-21T07:07:00.001-08:00

I remember
During the start of Secondary 3,
I forged a signature and got caught by my seniors.
罗老师 told me something which I will always remember in mind.
Think before you act.
And I thought I have practiced it ever since.
Guess I didn't think enough eh.

2010-11-19T08:17:00.000-08:00

Mixed emotions overflowing my body.
Man I will go crazy someday :/

2010-11-16T08:37:00.000-08:00

你走了.
他走了.
她走了.
教练和郭老师要离开了.

只剩下这个傻瓜站在原地不动.
接下来只能靠自己了...

2010-11-16T07:40:00.000-08:00

这是我的教练,是我非常敬佩的一个人.

他的武术技术非常强.
中一看到他时,觉得非常敬佩.

但是他的魔鬼般的训练真的令人难以忘怀.
在旧的校舍,我们经常经历过教练所给我们的训练
自己好象快要倒了,可是在大家的打气之下,我们一一度过难关
在过程中,不知不觉地变强.
团队的凝聚力也会越来越强.
都是教练的功劳.
教练和他的师兄师妹都是经过师公的严肃教导下
才会变得这么强 :)

不止这样,他的教法也非常好
就是在他的教导下,我能从最后第二名跳到第二名.
这五年果然让我学到了许多东西.
脚踏就来了嘛!
眼神要盯住远方!
定式要久一点!
动作要狠!
这些话我会永远记住的.

来到了立化,我以为武术只是,也只有套路.
认识他之后,我也认识了武德.
才发现到武术不是这么的渺小.
不是这么单纯.

谢谢教练让我领悟,学习和完成到许多事物.
因为您,我能完成我人生中第一个侧空翻.
因为您,我能拿到我人生中唯一的银牌.
因为您,我能成为现在的我.

谢谢您.和对不起.

您曾说过,教练的任务是要让学生们超越他.
总有一天,我一定会超越您的.

遇见,是个偶然.
离别,是个必然.
这次偶然改变了我的生命.
也改变了立化武术龙狮团.
我希望您也能和我们一起加油 :)

谢谢教练.

2010-11-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

时间过得很快
转眼间
一年就快过去了。
在这一年，
我的感触良多。
虽然今年经历了许多苦
偶尔有一些酸涩和麻辣的事发生
但还是有很多甜滋滋的回忆
永远记录在我的心里。

谢谢大家。
尤其是立化武术龙狮团。
谢谢你们。

现在
我要把回忆放下
把心放下
把忧愁放下
把你放下

继续我最后的旅程。

对自己说：
我人生重要关头只一已经结束
对你的暗恋也彻底的结束

2010-11-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

2010-11-04T08:28:00.000-07:00

有时候，感觉很无助。

2010-10-30T09:41:00.000-07:00

2010-10-27T07:18:00.000-07:00

Ability and passion.
These are the things we need to put more effort on.
RVWUSHU, we need to get back our right.
The passion that we used to have.
The discipline that we used to have.
The FIGHTING SPIRIT that have been extinguished since.

PEOPLE, LETS KEEP THE FIGHTING SPIRIT BURNING!!!! 加油

Thank you Francis :)

2010-10-22T08:18:00.000-07:00

人生就像在吃饭
单单吃白饭会觉得太单调
吃几道美味佳肴
加上调味料
生活才会有酸甜苦辣
吃饱了,觉得满足了
就等待下一餐的到来

P.S. DO NOT TRY AND EAT DRUMSTICK CAKE AND BITTER GOURD WITH STRAWBERRY AND GRAPE ICING, OR YOU WILL END UP LIKE THIS:

2010-10-10T07:51:00.001-07:00

2010-10-09T08:52:00.001-07:00

I'm still walking for the happiness that I seek :)

2010-10-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

2010-10-01T11:05:00.000-07:00

The Dummy [by Michael Mack]

In that forgotten part of town
Where wasted hopes and dreams abound,
A wrinkled man with life near end,
In hopes to have at least one friend
Fashioned bits of wood and things
And made a dummy run by strings.

He sat alone for hours on end,
Conversing with his only friend
And found delight within the fact
That he controlled it's every act.
He told it how he never had
A chance, since all his luck was bad
Although he'd tried so to succeed
The dummy nodded and agreed.

And how his journeys in romance
Had never given him a chance,
And wasn't it a crying shame
That he was always held to blame
When everyone knew, oh so well,
That life is but a living Hell,
Controlled by lust and power and greed?
The dummy nodded and agreed.

With patients that would rival saints,
That dummy sat through all complaints
And, with each little expert tug,
He'd droop his head or bow or shrug
And give some comfort to the man
Who held his lifelines in his hand
And helped to fill a lonely need
When he just nodded and agreed.

Senility increased with time
As did the old man's phantomime,
And feverish fingers pulled with glee
The dummy's dance of misery.
They never left each other's side
Until the day both stopped and died.
We found them lying, hand in hand,
The dummy - and his wooded friend.

2010-09-30T08:25:00.001-07:00

2010-09-28T06:35:00.001-07:00

Well. I have. And I can't turn back anymore...

2010-09-27T04:23:00.000-07:00

I can't see the bright side.

2010-09-26T09:34:00.002-07:00

You can make a difference :)

2010-09-22T07:46:00.000-07:00

永远的朋友. By: 陈伟联

如果你很忙
我到街上去晃一晃
身为一个朋友
有些事情不该勉强
看你黑着眼圈
今晚很长我睡不着
到底是谁害你这么想

因为太爱你

拼命达到你的需要

虽然只是朋友

总比什么都不是好

借你肩膀依靠

借你关心也借你微笑

我很想给你却不要

爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有

真挚的做一个永远的朋友

看着你旧旧的简讯内容

我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄

爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油

虚弱的做一个永远的朋友

几次累的想断绝联络

却听见你说情人比不上朋友

我总是有让你想出声的方法
我却没有让自己离开的力量
也许友情才能地久天长
我只是朋友

Today
I learnt to cherish the friends I have
Thank You my friends.
And sorry :(

2010-09-20T09:32:00.002-07:00

exams are over :D
Haha now back to project work.. :(

2010-08-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

难道
在大家眼里中
我就只是一个透明人吗?

2010-07-28T06:36:00.001-07:00

Today, i found out the meaning of loneliness.
it is a very painful and sad thing. :(
Im really sorry.

2010-07-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

everyone needs a companion eh :)
lol manfred you are goodlooking hahaha :D

2010-07-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

With great power comes great responsibility.
Thank you rvwushulst :)
We can do this, right wanyan, zihao and yueling? :D
btw thanks cx for the book! really helped lol

2010-06-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

Really thank you everyone :D
I will do my best! :D

2010-06-08T21:48:00.002-07:00

Time to move on. :)
Thanks for giving me the courage to face myself.

最近雨下得很大
记得照顾自己
不要生病了
加油! :)

2010-06-08T07:51:00.000-07:00

到头来,只剩下自己一个人...
过一个孤独的生日..

2010-06-04T22:09:00.000-07:00

Thank you RVWUSHULST for attending this camp! :D
Felt really happy that you all enjoyed yourselves :)
Haha and great job facilitators and valerie :D
I'm sure we can make a better camp next time! :D

2010-05-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

MWAHAHA HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! :D

2010-05-08T22:01:00.000-07:00

random LOL

2010-04-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

2010-04-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

琐住的心
已经失去了唯一打开心门的钥匙
永远打不开...

2010-04-14T04:53:00.001-07:00

Realised that there are a lot of important events that has a 2 inside.

1. I'm the 2nd eldest in the family
2. My block number is 326
3. I have moved house twice
4. The best memories I had is when I was in sec 2
5. My class has 2 other guys other than me
6. I started wushu when I was primary 2
7. I got 2nd for nandao this year

I really want to change this..
Next year.
It will be a 1.

2010-04-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

So many things happened this instant...
really don't know how to handle...
It really hurts to see you like this...

2010-04-06T06:50:00.001-07:00

RVWUSHULST FTW!!!!! :D

2010-04-02T19:28:00.000-07:00

只剩下两天
突然觉得世界末日要到了..
在那若无其事的表面后
隐藏着紧张的情绪..
[我知道我的华文很烂]

只剩下两天
樳鸿,加油!!

2010-03-17T07:27:00.000-07:00

Today is fun
Thanks everyone :)

2010-03-13T04:05:00.000-08:00

一场不可能发生的爱情...
明明知道这是不可能发生的事
但是他还是依然抱着这一丝希望..
可能是他的想象力太丰富
不时不刻都想象着他和她两个人永远在一起..
当他们在一起的时候
他非常希望这一切能变成永恒..
在她向他微笑的那瞬间
他渴望能每天看到她那灿烂的笑容...
只是这一切永远不会发生...

2010-01-24T07:27:00.000-08:00

The Heart Shop is back! :D
For people who need hearts
You can order them here through the tagboard for free! :D
come and get your free hearts now! :D:D

2010-01-23T07:03:00.000-08:00

Every day seems harder to live...
Optimistic is just a word
but so hard to achieve...

2010-01-21T04:58:00.000-08:00

The list of things I want to do after the A-levels:
1. Play until I forget my name
2. Draw until I forget my name
3. Practise wushu until I forget my name
4. Get my CKF back :D
5. Learn all the aerials possible
6. Go back RV to visit my juniors and friends :D :D
7. Lose weight
8. Work out until I become muscular person
9. Burn all my previous textbooks in a bonfire.
10. Hang out with my friends untl I forget my name
11. Take a guitar and practise songs until I forget my name
12. Sit in front of my piano and play songs until I forget my name
13. Daydream until I forget my name
14. Sleep until I forget my name
15. Get a sunflower hairstyle

Too bad this will all remain a dream for now...
I will make them come true :)

2010-01-14T04:55:00.000-08:00

没想到第一天上学,
就觉得如此的孤单...
这么的悲伤...
这么多的苦衷..
大家
对不起．．．

2009-12-30T19:26:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's wushu outing was..
Memorable :)
Thank you.
I'm always in your debt.

2009-12-17T02:39:00.000-08:00

Stay strong
BELIEVE!! :D

2009-12-07T20:48:00.001-08:00

Sounds hard to believe...
But...
I feel like I will miss Ms Ek.

2009-12-06T20:29:00.001-08:00

Will be leaving to malaysia for a few days
HAHA don't miss me :D

2009-11-30T20:55:00.000-08:00

Finally got a new blogskin :D
Its the 1st of December now
one month has passed so fast.
Hmm I dunno what to do next..
Maybe get a job?
Rah i dunno...
Has been an emo-emo mood nowadays
Want to find someone to talk
weird eh.

STAY STRONG, BELIEVE! :D

2009-11-18T03:04:00.000-08:00

Finally updated after a long time.
In the last post
I remembered saying that time flies like a rocket
now i regretted what I said.
Time seems so slow now
nothing to do...
except playing pokemon at home LOL
can't wait for the wushu outing tomorrow :D

time seems to pass exceptionally fast in school

2009-10-31T06:22:00.000-07:00

2 years just passed like that...
Mixed emotions in my head
How i wish we can come back together
laughing around and talking
playing and fooling around.
After i realised how important you all mean to me
it is already too late...
Can time rewind?

2009-10-30T03:52:00.000-07:00

It's the end.

2009-10-26T08:04:00.000-07:00

Sorry its kind of troublesome to draw each persons faces
so I drew the index number instead.
Sorry if thats weird.
Yay 2B outing today! xD
Finally a time where most of 2B people are together.
Hope there are more frequent outings like this :D
Cant wait for the 2B chalet xD

2009-10-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

Didnt expect frequently to be so soon

hahaha.

.............

2009-10-12T07:53:00.000-07:00

YES FINALLY EXAMS OVER LE!!

guess everyone is happy :D

So much possibilities now xD

1. Must become less fat [ ppl say im fat leh... ]

2. exercise more [ good for the heart :) ]

3. Watch KO yi ban and KO yi jia

4. Draw until my hand rot :)

Right now can only think of that

Shall update more frequently :)

2009-09-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

This should be uploaded a long time ago.
I'm screwed...

2009-09-03T01:35:00.000-07:00

Sorry blogger got screwed up
Cannot post pictures le.
Drew quite a lot.
If there is fate I will post them de :D
Life simply sucks.

2009-07-19T08:37:00.000-07:00

There was once a legend

That when an emo person eats chocolate

The chocolate angel will descend

And grant the emo person happiness.

The chocolate angel lives on sadness and misery

And his job is to remove sadness from emo people.

But where does his misery go?

2009-07-04T08:26:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time.
Hehe.
Realised I have missed a lot of things.
Wushu CIP.
Wushu outings.
A lot of things.
Seems like im lagging behind time.
K-ON!

2009-06-11T05:58:00.000-07:00

Copied this from a card.

Looks like a good pet too.

Haha.

I would rather get a dog though.

Much loyal.

Always by your side.

2009-06-03T01:19:00.001-07:00

Suddenly remembered the days in Xiamen.
With Rvwushu
With 1B/2B-07
So fun
but it will never come back.
Suddenly remembered the stupid things that I did.
So stupid.
Yet they are so hard to forget.
Memories are supposed to fade
But they just stay in your mind
Stuck like super-glue.
The more you try to forget
The more they come back.
I just wish
That things will just go back to the way they were
That I thought beforehand
That you will forgive me
That I do not exist.
Sorry.

Once a teacher asked her class
"what do you want to be when you grow up?"
Some students said,
"I want to be a lawyer!"
Others said,
"I want to be a doctor!"
Finally
The student called xxx said,
I want to be a gambler.
He failed for the rest of his life.
Moral of the story.
Do not be a gambler.
=]
Tell me why
You are so hard to forget
Dont remind me
Im not over it.
Tell me why
I cant seem to face the truth
Im just a little too not over you...

2009-06-01T07:09:00.000-07:00

起先我不认识她,
只是独自站在她身后,
但是不知道为什么
心很痛...
我的心好像被什么刺到了,
又痛又难受,
后来我终于知道原因了.
我的心
开了一朵花,
而且一点一滴
慢慢地
向前延伸...
如果花动到她的背
她肯定会转过头来看我,
但是...
看到她微笑着
握住他心中开的那朵花.
那瞬间
我的花停止生长了...

2009-05-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

I am bogeyman.
I do not have a shape.
I am a nobody.
Everytime I stay close to people
they do not sense my presence.
I seemed forgotten.
Next time.
I will appear.
And scare everybody.
MUAHAHA!

2009-05-14T06:37:00.000-07:00

Finally blogging after exams.
Now there are a lot of things to do.
Now to focus on Wushu
Must master my CKF at the end of this year
and finish all my runs I hope.
Didnt really started.
Jiayous =D
And focus on studies
My tests are getting out of hand.
Wish I can get more better results.
Guess I have to mug this holidae.
=[Do Not Be Like Me.
MUHAHAHA.

2009-04-18T05:56:00.000-07:00

This photo gave me old memories.
Whenever i see this photo
i remember all the good times
when everyone is having fun
every harsh trainings that we have faced
every sad moments that we have been through
Sometimes it just feels sad and nostalgic thinking about it
thinking that having so little time left
thinking that you have wasted 3 and a half years in RVWUSHUXST
without making any achievements
without making a difference in everyone.
I feel that
I did not make an impact in RVWUSHUXStT
I did not make a difference
I did not fufill my promises and responsibilities
I am a bad member of RVWUSHUXST
I am a bad logistics head.

Thats why im not inside the photo.
Hehe.

2009-04-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

In these 4 years in RV
I like my cca.
Its the motivation that made me stay in RV
made me tolerate the bad moments in RV.
I have thought about this question for a long time
What if RV does not have wushu?
what will happen to the people in RVWUSHUXST?
My answer is
without RVWUSHUXST
i will not learn about teamwork
i will not have the bestest friends that i have for four years
i might still be an arrogant idiot who is self centered and fat and stupid and nerdy and no life and has mushroom hair and has millions of pimples and so non-confident and blah blah blah....

Im proud of my cca
because RVWUSHUXST is my second home
where i learnt a lot of things there
like moral values and real friendship and teamwork and a lot of stuff.
RVWUSHUXST has my best memories in my four years
whenever theres always something happy it will always be linked to RVWUSHUXST.
I like RVWUSHUXST. =D
Because it is something important to me.
It just feels hollow without it.
Dunno why.
In the past i chose NCC as my first choice of cca.
I want to be like my brother
However i went into wushu.
At first i felt disappointed.
However
as the years passed by
I became part of it.
Im proud of it.
If i went to NCC instead of wushu
i might have wasted 4 years of my life.
Seriously.

I love RVWUSHUXST.
I just do.
But i might have taken it for granted.
I did not put in my 120% effort.
I did not handle the admin stuff properly.
I did not cherish the four years in RVWUSHUXST.
I failed in being a logistics head
I failed in becoming a part of RVWUSHUXST.
For the past few years.

This year
I felt acknowledged by my team.
I felt happy with RVWUSHUXST.
But its now too late.

2009-04-14T06:58:00.000-07:00

Once
God created a boy
he has no name
nor he has a past
he is perfect.
On the day of his 15th birthday
everything turned upside down for him.
His life turned 180 degrees upside down
everything became his nightmare
he became a burden to everybody
so he decided not to live.

He learns that life does not revolve around him
without him
life will continue on.
no one will stop and pray for him

In a team
he does not feel that he is part of the team
he feels that he is not a good leader
he feels that he is only a burden to the team
He believes
that one day the team will accept him again
but this wish never came true.

In a family
he is constantly being nagged non-stop by everyone
for the slightest mistakes
although he didnt do anything wrong
He believes
one day his parents will understand him
but his wish didnt came true

God is disappointed in him.
Everyone is disappointed in him.
No one pitied him.
To them
he is just an ordinary person
no importance
without him
the world will still revolve around
there will still be 12 months.
Such a person like him
should be deserved to be banished off this peaceful world
there are no room for sandbags

His name is ____ ___ ____

2009-04-04T06:00:00.000-07:00

Everybody has to say goodbye
I dunno if I say goodbye
I will have the fate to see you all again
Especially you.

2009-03-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the eclipse.
Man so much things happening
My mind = verge of explosion
Competition
Exams
Relationships
Whoa my pimples growing back liao.
Wish I were dead.

2009-03-11T06:29:00.000-07:00

Somtimes I just feel so left out...

some things that are so near me

Are yet so far away...

want to shout out loud

So that someone hears me.

2009-02-27T03:37:00.000-08:00

Im sick...
Should be some terminal disease bah.
Got only a few months left.
What should I do?
What If I DIE?

2009-02-17T05:05:00.000-08:00

Found myself disappearing from real life...

Right to another dimension

Where I found that I have changed

Into someone that nobody recognises me.

Into someone that even I hate myself.

Into someone that I want to bash up.

I am an idiot from the fourth dimension...

2009-02-09T06:33:00.000-08:00

I want to reach for the stars.

I want to shine like the sun.

I want to be as romantic as the moon.

I all seems so hard.

Never give up your dreams.

Believe in what you have.

And you will have it in the end.

If you persevere.

Valentine's day is coming....

2009-01-24T18:12:00.000-08:00

My back is broken.

Very pain.

Cannot imagine.

ARGH!!!

Now my life become more miserable liao...

T__T

NVM

Got chinese new year

Can eat a lot of things =]

Happy Chinese New Year EVERYONE

Wish my back will be healed...

2009-01-10T20:15:00.000-08:00

2009 passes so slowly...
Cannot help but wonder
how do I survive this year....
Whatever..
Im moving on =D
I want my PSP =[[

2008-12-26T18:31:00.000-08:00

I noe its a bit late...
Becuz haf no time to post on de blog
Merry christmas!! XD
On the day of giving and receiving
And yet I didnt receive anyting at all...
Sian...

2008-12-17T01:09:00.000-08:00

In the fairytale

The good guy always have the happy ending

While the baddie always faces the tragedy

I am the baddie in the fairytale

Did so many bad things

And so many bad things happened to me

Eventually finding myself in the hands of the devil

After all the good things I tried to do

But to no avail

Its too late for me.....

Like a criminal captured behind bars

waiting for his execution.....

2008-12-16T02:45:00.000-08:00

Quiz tagged by ziyi
=]]=]]=]]=]]

Rules:
1.each player of this game start of with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2.people who get tagged have to write 10 thing little known facts.
3.the end you need to choose 10 people to tag and list out their names.
4.No tag back the person who tagged you.

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The 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself: (dun tell anyone =]])
1. I also read in the toilet ( =] )
2. I am a slacker ( everyone says so.. )
3. I like to sing in the shower ( most unfortunately )
4. I go on emo sprees ( =[[ )
5. I like to think of ways to kill myself
6. I am fat!! ( 70 kg =[[ )
7. I become a total retard when I meet girls. ( sad )
8. I am unhygiene... ( sad sad sad sad sad )
9. I am vulnerable to scary things.
10. I like.....

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My name:
A: you like to drink
B: you like people
C: you are really silly
D: you like to eat
E: you like to play with dogs
F: you are dead sexy
G: you never let people tell you what to do
H: you have good personality and good looks
I: easy to be with
J: people adore you
K: you are wild and crazy
L: everyone loves you
M: best kisser ever
N: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
O: easy to fall in love with
P: you are popular with all types of people
Q: you are a tomboy
R: you are loyal to those who love you
S: crazy
T: awesome kisses
U: you really like to chill
V: awesome in bed
W: you are very broad minded
X: you love sports
Y: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
Z: always ready

T - awesome kisses ( TOTALLY NOT TRUE 0_0 )
H - good personality and good looks ( thanks but not true luh =[[ )
A - you like to drink
M - Best kisser ever ( 0_0 )

X - you love sports ( finally something true =]] )
U - you like to chill ( I spend 14 hours beside the fridge =]] JUZ JOKING )
N - best bf anyone could ask for ( tyvm )

H - you have good personality and good looks
O - easy to fall in love with ( wish its true )
N - best bf anyone could ask for
G - you never let people tell me what to do ( totally the opposite )

I dunwan tag anyone...
haha. even if I tag nobody will do wad
10+ more days left
felt like killing myself

Xiamen is a nice place =]]

2008-12-12T05:58:00.000-08:00

The pictures are in reverse order ( paiseh) :p

Anyway

Xiamen rocks!

Wan to go there again!

Sian

After a few days

Den I miss xiamen le...

De kids there are super cute

Aso damn pro...

De tour guide Alex also damn nice...

Man..

Seriously want to go there again...

Time machine

2008-11-27T06:30:00.001-08:00

I built a time machine

Finally

I can go back in time

To return to the happy times when I am in 2B

To correct the embarassing mistakes that I made

To experience the memoriable times that I had...

50 cents for 1 ride to the past...

And Im still waiting....

Happy

2008-11-16T05:01:00.000-08:00

This shall be the LAST LAST LAST emo blogspot

If i didnt remember better slap me...

Im getting pissed of myself..

For being so emo..

being so paranoid...

Being so insignificant...

Went to wushu chalet

Had fun =]]

Also had some memoriable memories...

NOW...

Time to make a difference.. =D

Separate directions

2008-10-31T03:48:00.000-07:00

That day

We walked separate directions

On the same path

I walk alone...

I did not try to listen to your feelings

Im sorry...

Can you let me walk the same path as you??

Screwie

2008-10-25T20:04:00.000-07:00

A new voodoo doll..

Its name is screwie =]]

Helps me unscrew my brain

To absorb more wisdm n knowledge =]]

And prevents me from more screw-ups

wish it helps me...

Domination!!!

2008-10-16T21:55:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!!!!!
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!
YAY!!!
computer...
DOMINATED!!
television...
DOMINATED!!!
life...
DOMINATED!!!
whooooo
=]]]]

Grasp of Time

2008-09-20T21:18:00.000-07:00

All the good times are in the past..
And now I want to go back...
Run away from the EOYs
Run away from CID..
Run away from all the exams..
If I have time in my hands..
Everything will be fine..
=]
Even If that's so..
She still wun like me...

Crying in a corner..

2008-09-06T07:55:00.001-07:00

Everything just seems to fall apart...
Screwed results...
Screwed everything...
Maybe Im not too open enough...
But now its too late..
Sometimes it's good to cry in a corner..

Hero..

2008-08-25T07:25:00.000-07:00

Finally.. A hero came to update my dead blog =]

Its O-man to the rescue!!

Let me save u...

Sometimes, a hero also needs a hero...

The heart shop

2008-08-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

Excuse me
Can I buy a heart
That suits my size
? =]]
Can I buy a heart from you?
Only you have the heart I want...

My 5 days

2008-07-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

Day 1.
Attended racial harmony ceremony
Sian...
Day 2 - 4
Go for some entrepreneurship course
It suks...
SIAN...
Day 5
Hang around..
Still suks...
SIAN....
I swear not to miss OBS again...